Oh darn.  No big ideas here.  No beautiful pictures this time.  It's ok, because I've learned long ago that this is a place for me to write my feelings, vent, share...if only with my family...if only for our history.

Today was hard.  Emotionally and physically.  Physically because I'm T.I.R.E.D.  Don't want to get my lazy bones out of bed, tired.  Because my heart told me to stay home, but I listened to my head instead.  It took all my strength to keep it together.  Emotionally because I care far too much about things outside of my control.  Because I know that being true to me means dealing with the judgements of others.  Because trying to be emotionally strong when I'm physically tired is impossible.

The month of May is FULL of stuff.  Baseball games, appointments, concerts, track and field days, end of school days, graduating days, birthdays...all on top of our normal days {i.e. work days}.  And bottom line is this...I know that all these things are important.  I enjoy a lot of these things.  But, nothing beats staying at home...snuggled with my family...with nothing to do.  Nothing.  Boring and normal.  That's what I really crave.

Sounds boring?

I say it sounds perfect.