i'm having a hard time managing this thing called my life. originally this blog was born to help me focus on my blessings. it was created months after the devastating loss of my pregnancy with baby girl Clementine, and allowed me to focus my attention on all the good things going on. it's easy to get sucked into the sorrow and i couldn't let that happen. this blog saved me then, and has been a bit of a history book for our family. so, why have i left many, many chapters unwritten? good question. it's one i've been asking myself for months, but i think i have the answer...
as much as i love to blog about my family, it was starting to feel like a job. it was starting to be a source of guilt. i was not enjoying it anymore. and, in some ways, it was keeping me from being present with my kids. also, let me be honest, it's frustrating to feel like you're writing into thin air. the only people reading my blog are the ones we see almost daily, comments were becoming scarce, i started to feel like what i had to say wasn't good enough...my inner critic was ripping me apart.
not a good feeling.
so, i've taken a break. i'm still self-evaluating. i'm still deciding if this blog still has a place in my life.
we're incredibly busy, as one might assume, with 3 energetic, inquisitive kids. we're running a lot. we've had a busy summer with lots of trips to the pool, a road trip (here and there), sports camps (for some), friends, and house projects...always house projects...
the most important thing, however, is that we're all still here. together. healthy. (most the time) happy.
school starts in 8 days. 8. days. (((((sigh)))))
back to routine. back to reality. back to blogging? we shall see...
1 comment:
Nice to have you back. Love the picture. It is always interesting to read your blog so please continue. Much love.
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